And I’m Back

Hi flower faceMan it’s been a  while since I’ve been here.  It’s been a pretty wonderful 6 months since I last posted, and time flies when you’re busy enjoying life.  It was good time off.  At the end of the summer I began to realize how many projects I had to finish for my little sister’s wedding in October, and because I didn’t want reveal any of the wedding details before the big day, I knew couldn’t share these project here on the blog.  So, I gave myself the space and the time to work on these projects whole heartedly.  I was able to really enjoy the process of helping my sister’s wedding be a bit more beautiful and unique.  And, on October 25th, in Austin, TX it all came together better than I could have hoped, I was one proud big sister.  After all the hours spent crafting, DIYing, and planning, the most rewarding gift was wonderful week filled with family and friends making amazing memories together.  And of course seeing my sister so happy and in love.

But the wedding was months ago now, so it cannot be solely held responsible for my break from this space.  I had been blogging for two years, and certain aspects were just beginning to feel forced for me.   Creative endeavors were focused around getting post finished and up to share.  I needed some time to reflect on what I wanted from this space, as I have evolved a great deal personally since beginning it.  The time I have taken off has allowed me to reevaluate why I love doing this, and explore new personal journeys.  I love the design, and graphic aspect of blogging.  I have been so inspired, and for the first time I believe ever, I know I found my passion and am ready to dedicate myself into making it a career. So, tomorrow, I have my first day of graphic design classes at the community college! I couldn’t’ be more excited, and I feel ready to learn so much more.  Blogging has been such a huge part of my journey towards this decision, I look forward to using this space to continue sharing what I’m learning.  It feels like a gift to be growing creatively.  It’s always been such a big part of who I am, but as I get older (yesterday I entered my last year before my 30) I am embracing it more and more, as it brings out my better quailities and makes me feel whole.

I am so happy to be writing this post, because in a way blogging can be like going to the gym, it’s hard to get back into the habit, and the first days are always the hardest, but once you find the routine, and break the dry spell, it feels oh so good.  For those of you who have hopefully missed me, I’m back! and thank you for all your support.  So here’ s to the next chapter, and many more adventures in blogging.

 

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Sometimes it’s best said simply, with beautiful colors. I head back home today after a wonderful weekend with my mom and sister.  I am sad to say good-bye, but I leave feeling inspired and ready to get back to my art room and my two loves. See you soon Colorado.

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Voted Best Dad Ever 28 Years in a Row!

Happy Father’s Day to the best Dad ever.  Thank you for your endless support, and all the amazing things you have taught me along the way.   I can’t imagine where I’d be without you.  Thank you for always guiding me in the right direction, while loving me for exactly who I am, or what mistakes I’ve made.    Wish we could go on an antiquing excursion today, or go explore a new place with our cameras.  I look forward to all the many more Father Daughter adventures we will have together.  I love you. xo

P.S. my dad is an avid political button collector, a hobby that began about 15 Father’s Days ago when I framed a few vintage buttons (Kennedy I believe) which he had saved from his childhood.  Years later the few pins I so amateurly framed, are joined by hundreds more, and can cover an entire wall.   They inspired this years Father’s Day cards.
BestDaDButton“My father gave me the greatest gift anyone could give another person, he believed in me.” ~ Jim Valvano
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Life is Full of Adventure

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Just a little something I designed with Illustrator. The more I use that program the more I like it.

All of life’s adventures are a little better with someone along for the ride with you! I’m so happy tomorrow is Friday, this weekend is going to be beautiful.

Joie de Vivre

FlowersBW.jpegI’ve been working more and more in Photoshop and Illustrator to edit my illustrations and designs…and I am loving it more and more.  This past week I was asked to design and print 50 cards, by my friend Rose. She wanted cards to send out on special occasions, Birthdays, and just to say hello.  We came up with three designs that she really loved.   All three share the message “joie de vivre”, which expresses the joy of living.  I like that message, so it was a pleasure designing cards to express that.  I created one design that could be sent out to a wide range of people in Rose’s life, keeping it vibrant, yet simple, and with hopes it’s a joy to look at (above design).   The other two below, were more specifically designed for her.  She requested a bulldog card, which was fun because I’ve been known for doodling dogs (I have a few wiener dog designs up my sleeve right now for my sisters wedding). The final card was a collaboration between Bill and I.  Rose had given me a wonderful photo of her and her pup kayaking together, a loved past time, and asked me to incorporate it because the photo had so much happiness in it.  I immediately thought how special it would be if Bill could draw the portrait of the two of them.  I am so thrilled with the final result.  I really love working with him, and it’s exciting explore what we can do together as artists.

This is also the first time I’ve had cards printed professionally (we went through kinkos and did the cutting and the fold ourselves), and I was pleased with how they turned out!

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Our Boy Forever

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I struggle with how to begin this entry.  It is one I feel most compelled to write, but one that brings me to tears still to do so.  Our new year however has been marked by loss for Bill and I.  Our precious boy, Rocky, who filled our hearts, and home, with unimaginable amounts of love, kindness, and kisses passed away unexpectedly on the night of December 30th.  I won’t go into too many details here, because now the only fact that seems important is that he is no longer with us.  After taking him to the hospital on December 26th with what seemed to be an upset stomach and dehydration, his health quickly declined, and by the next morning, our big strong boy could no longer walk.  I felt broken myself seeing him laying in the hospital attached to tubes and IVs, knowing that only two days before we were running through fresh snow together.  We were given hope, we needed hope, because his eyes and his spirit were still so present, loving, and healthy.  The vets too gave us hope for recovery, and we clung to that hope ferociously for four days.  On the last day he contracted pneumonia, which weakened his already tired lungs. By the end of that night it was just too much.  We got to lay with him as we kissed him good-bye, thanking him for his companionship and for always being the best good boy.

I do not have the words to explain how much Rocky meant to me; what he did for me, and for Bill, or what he taught us.  The importance of our relationship with our boy is one that will only ever be understood by Bill and I.  Together we find comfort in remembering how he changed us, and the joy he gave us selflessly on a daily basis.  But to anybody who has ever lost a pet (and the word pet seems trivial and inappropriate to me at times because aren’t they so much more than that) can understand that these bonds we form with the animals we love, and who return that love 10 fold, are priceless.  Rocky came into our lives as a pet, and left as our son, our baby, the one who showed me further how to give and receive without complaint or expectation, and how to live each day full of appreciation and genuine enthusiasm.  He taught me to better love myself.   He taught Bill and I how to better love each other, to be patient with each other, and to forgive each other with genuine gentleness and sincerity.  In the five years that Bill and I have been together our boy Rocky was always by our side. We felt happiest when we were all cuddled in bed together, or out on our morning walk.  It was the simple, calm moments that I felt brought all three of us shared peace, joy, and gratitude.    I’m going to miss those moments most.

He hated when either of us cried, whether from pain, or disappointment, or frustration, or the tear jerking movie we were watching.  It was his kisses, and the worry in his eyes, that always were able to snap us out of tears and find us laughter again quickly. I’ve felt the need for his warmth and kisses more then ever, but I’ve tried to keep my face dry and my spirits high because I know thats all the big guy wanted for us: Happiness.

It’ll be a long time before that hole and quietness at home begins to feel less gaping.  But he still seems so present, and that is how I know he really will always be with us, it will be impossible for Bill and I to lose him in our hearts and mind.  And it makes me only want to hold Bill closer and love him more.  Rocky served a grand purpose in our lives, for those closer to bill and I, you may know he helped save us, just as much as we helped save each other.  Life works in unexplainable ways, and the older I get the more I learn to keep those things loved ever so close.  I have no regrets for my love for Rocky, he made it impossible not to show him everyday how much he meant to us.  I still find myself saying “I love you big guy” in my heart in head every time we leave the house, because for the past five years it was the last thing a I always made sure to tell him before walking out the door.   I want him to know I still do and always will, and I know he does.

My big boy, my baby boy, my Rock Dog, my baby bear, Rocklobsta, your dad and I loved you more than we could have known and love you still.  Thank-you for giving us our lives back and giving us a future together.  Thank-you for just being our good boy, everyday and every second.  We carry every moment with you with us.   They are the most beautiful moments we can remember.

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Heart Filled Holiday

{i love you}

I spent my Valentine’s Day catching up on all the little holiday crafts I had on my to do list but ran out of time to finish.  Better late the never!  I made quick little valentine’s and chocolate cupcakes with homemade paper flags.  Everything was super easy and turned out so cute, and seemed to put a smile on everyone’s face.

{simple materials for a simple project}

{sweet messages}

{a little glitter and glue goes a long way}

{these flags would be great for any special occasion}

{bite-size cupcakes and sprinkles}

{you tame my heart}

{a cute way to use the new heart-hole punch Bill got me}

{our love is out of this out this world}

{ "sending all my loving to you..." }

{ready for delivery}